Say something

I am kneeling here. The room is here and yet, I do not feel its presence, it is not my space, my space is somewhere else, uninhibited by walls and doors. They scare me, walls and doors. I love the openess of the sea but life can never be like that, can it? Open, beyond what the eye can see? And that is why I am kneeling here. I hear nothing, my world is closed all around me, the only sign of my existence are the hunger pangs gnarling away at my intestines, I don’t want it to be over, this experience but soon enough, I will have to face the world again, a place where red eyes go about with hunger in them, and those arms of people, reaching forth to caress you, reaching forth to drown you, reaching forth to do something, it is now or never, face the world or you go under, say something, do something, smile, laugh, have a glint in your eye...

“Do you know why you are being punished again?”

If you would only tell me, I will be forever grateful, pray, tell me why? Because I know for sure something you all don’t know...

“No senior”

“Do you realize you are the only one left here, again?”

I realize, dear young adult, but I also realize that I know something that you don’t...

“Yes senior”

“Why can you not, like all the other juniors say “forgive me?” why can’t you?”

Because I know something you don’t, that my world is bigger than those two words and bigger than you...

“I don’t know why senior”

“You don’t know why? Do you admit you have done something wrong?”

Something wrong, something right, who is the judge? My world is bigger than right and wrong, bigger than this space, this time...

“Once again, you will stay here, while others are sleeping, you will kneel down all night since you cannot say “forgive me”

All through the night...reminds me of a song, all night long, all night long....

Can anybody be this drunk????

The night was the usual for them, metallica, acdc, greenday, I fell asleep at 9, woke up at 12 and continued the drinking spree. I do not know what I mixed, smirnoff vodka, apple something, with sprite and lemon i think, and a couple of glasses of wine, and more vodka, and water, ice....and more vodka...the apple something...I am finished. It is over...where is Patrice? he usually has something to say about my liver...hello?

Second chances....

Thinking about all those paths I have taken, looking for...something...searching for...I am not sure of what. The years when right and wrong were so obvious yet I chose wrong, the years where choices were simple, yet I chose difficult. My life...like a huge work of collage, places, faces, in every single space, like a canvass, I remember eyes and mouths, words spoken, words left unspoken. It has been a journey, growing up, experiences that were rich, sometimes too poor, bland, flat, not really there. It has been a journey, trying to know what to do, trying...thats all I ever did, I tried. Those chances...when I could have said yes, I said no, when I should have said no, I said yes, yet it has made me who I am, those little tears, those little laughs...it has made me this person, ever asking, looking for answers..but this time, I will be brave enough, brave enough to take my chance, brave enough to right wrongs, brave enough to do right by me. My word is good, this is my chance, this is my life, and I will do right by me.

Teenage years...I rock am die!!!

Which song I no learn? which dance step I no try to learn? plus all those adventures for boarding house...abeg, here's to my happy memories jare!

A new day....

I was going to be serious and write a very philosophical post about "second chances" but I am in a very good mood today, I really can not be serious. Anyway, so I was just thinking that today is a new day, forget about whatever happened yesterday, the day before yesterday, last week, last month....whatever...let it go. As we dey talk for warri "na different day be dis", so, have a nice day, let the day be what it is meant to be, don't spoil it with left-over memories from yesterday. Make una enjoy jare, me, I dey go drink my coffee...

Ibori update.

They have finally arrested him. Read all about it, here. Oh, please read this as well, this cracked me up so bad....

Join Nigerian Lighthouse in celebrating Anti-Corruption Day on December 9th and 10th.

Dear friends:

December 9th is UN International Anti-Corruption Day and Nigerian Lighthouse seeks to commemorate this day with a small but pertinent project.

The goal is to get as many people to write a 50 word (or less) message on how to eradicate corruption in Nigeria. All submitted messages will be posted at the website - nigerianlighthouse.org Most Nigerians have an opinion on how to stop corruption. Here is a chance to share that idea with the world! So, simply write a message of 50 (or less) words and send it to NigerianLighthouse@gmail.com. Then send another message to your friends encouraging them to participate as well. This will only take 5 minutes of your time and the rewards - sharing ideas that will definitely improve Nigeria - is more than worth it.

Hope to hear from you all!