One to make you breathe...

I'll bring your lovers here,
Steal them from everywhere,
All lovers you might need.
One to make you sleep,
One to make you live,
And one to make you breathe...

Yeppppppp!

Have the flu. Nose blocked. Throat sore. Back fucked up.

But I am in a good place so looking forward to getting better and getting down to doing all my stuff.

Been getting to know (again) a long lost friend which is pretty cool. We found ourselves on facebook after ten years of no contact at all. And every time we meet we are like "oh yeah, that's why we liked each other", so apparently none of us have changed that much. We just got older.

Reading "the idiot" by Dostoevsky. I got tired of 19th century lit some years ago just because that's all I read for a while when I had one of my obsessive periods. Anyway, I am quite enjoying it again. Perhaps I just needed a long break from that period. Anyway, in my sick bed, that's been my companion and its a good one.

Have a good weekend. Love.

Sunday and chilling...

I watched a documentary yesterday about getting old...getting old is no joke, I tell you. Sooner or later, we are all gonna be there.

Its not too far away, basically, I have already lived half of my life. On this note, I am going to the gym.

Do things that make you happy.

Love.

Just thinking of words, beauty, lyrics, etc

The kind of writing I enjoy reading most are those words that just flow with beauty, like music. Like poetry. It doesn't have to have big philosophical ideas behind it and it does not have to be very entertaining. I just enjoy reading words that make the ideas behind it beautiful to read. Thats why I enjoy Paulo Coelho so much, not only because of his humanity but because of how he makes things that are hard to say become simple and beautiful at the same time. I used to read a lot of poetry when I was younger because I had a friend then who loved poetry, I still do but not as much as I should, I guess.

I like reading song lyrics too. I just randomly look for songs that I remember lines from and see if there are more beautiful lyrics in there. Here's today's song, "searching for a heart". Sung by Don Henley, written by  Warren Zevon.


Darkness in the morning
Shadows on the land
Certain individuals
Aren't sticking with the plan

And I'm searching for a heart
Searching everyone
They say love conquers all
You can't start it like a car
You can't stop it with a gun

Leaving in the evening
Traveling at night
Staying inconspicuous
I'm staying out of sight

And I'm searching for a heart
Searching everyone
They say love conquers all
You can't start it like a car
You can't stop it with a gun

They tell me love requires a little standing in line
And I've been waiting for you, lover, for a long, long time
I've been pacing the floor
I've been watching the door
Meanwhile I'll keep searching for a heart

Searching high and low for you
Trying to track you down
Certain individuals
Have finally come around

And I'm searching for a heart
Searching everyone
They say love conquers all
You can't start it like a car
You can't stop it with a gun

They tell me love requires a little standing in line
And I've been waiting for you, lover, for a long, long time
I've been pacing the floor I've been watching the door
Meanwhile I'll keep searching for a heart
Searching everyone
They say love conquers all
You can't start it like a car

I dont want to die without shaking up a thing or two...

7: 32.

And with that thought in my head, adios! Gat's to go, I have got stuff to do...

Love.

Beyond this...

Beyond this, beyond this.

You know, yesterday, this kid gave me a hug. The awkwardness of his hug made my heart ache. The innocence of his awkward hug left my own heart red and bare.

 All I wanted to do was protect him from the world, where it all happens.

His innocent love was too vulnerable, too much to bear.

A woman took my cardigan away and brought it back, the seams all mended.

This is beyond it all, I thought. This is where I always want to be. In this space, this time, this moment, when it is beyond everything.

But how do you live here and beyond here? All you become is crazy, a crazy diamond.

Well not really on this level...but you know, the adult version

Woke up this morning with the usual migraine...arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh...why, Lord, why? Anyway, took my drugs and hoped it will go away...

I have so much to do. Job and extra curriculum activities. Havent been to the gym in a while. I got a bit paranoid yesterday so I skipped dinner. But now I just checked my weight and I haven't gone up(Phew!) but I haven't reduced either!

I made some new friends which feels really good. A Brazilian woman and another lady from Lebanon. They made me promise to be in touch and not disappear...lol...everybody disappears in this city, men.

Things are okay,  lots of changes again but that's good if not life becomes fucking boring.

So I am kinda high a bit on life...now if only these damn migraines would go away...

Tuesday stuff...

Listening to reggae and feeling pretty mellow.

This is what you watch at 1:40 when you can't sleep...

I like Julio...yeah, I am not ashamed to say it! ha ha ha...I love watching his old concerts but today I found this one, its magical! Wonderful...