Monday, July 30, 2007
I don't know what emotion this is, somewhere between tears and laughter, I have not quite figured out this emotion, I don't think there is a name for it.....yet. The difference looking down from the plane is obvious to me everytime I come back to Europe. Landing in Warri, looking down at the so green trees and land, I always feel so nostalgic, a feeling that is " this is home, this is where i spent most of my childhood years"........now, landing here, a place where I have made my other home.......I just feel ......peace. I feel at peace, with myself, with the world, this is where I can be anonymous, this is where I can get lost in my own world, where things are never really tangible. I love Nigeria and I had a great time, I cried when I left, and I already miss so much of that mad world. Yet, now that I am here, I wonder again about my world which is never really here or there. Nigeria gives me joy, gives me such a hope for life, beyond possibilities and expectations, but I am at peace here. Is that enough?