Monday, July 30, 2007

Reflections of mine........

I don't know what emotion this is, somewhere between tears and laughter, I have not quite figured out this emotion, I don't think there is a name for it.....yet. The difference looking down from the plane is obvious to me everytime I come back to Europe. Landing in Warri, looking down at the so green trees and land, I always feel so nostalgic, a feeling that is " this is home, this is where i spent most of my childhood years"........now, landing here, a place where I have made my other home.......I just feel ......peace. I feel at peace, with myself, with the world, this is where I can be anonymous, this is where I can get lost in my own world, where things are never really tangible. I love Nigeria and I had a great time, I cried when I left, and I already miss so much of that mad world. Yet, now that I am here, I wonder again about my world which is never really here or there. Nigeria gives me joy, gives me such a hope for life, beyond possibilities and expectations, but I am at peace here. Is that enough?

16 comments:

Pink-satin said...

i feel that same way!

Nwanyi Ocha said...

We all need to find a balance my dear,

you'll find yours soon enough. Don't worry too much.

Anonymous said...

my sentiments exactly...life in a globalized world

uknaija said...

Welcome back ! I too know the feeling

jadedjune said...

you need peace in your life, where you can always reflect....thats why id hate to spend more than 2 weeks in nigeria.....but then nigeria is your home, but at least you have that reassurance that it will always be there if you want to go back....welcome home !!!

;-)

NIGERIA POLITRICKS said...

Ummmh, very deep. You're becoming poetic these days. Wuz up wit dat? I'm amazed how an emotional roller coaster can change the soul of a person...I'm sure you've learnt and grown from your experience back home. Now go on with your bad self and live life to da fullest. Go Waffy! You Rock!!!

Idemili said...

Why find a balance? You are allowed to feel both surely.

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

i think i might be writing a similar post when i go 2 naija... i love the naija i lived a while of my life in... but it's a different kind of home to me than Canada is... Canada is where i rest my head...

welcome back sweetie

SET said...

HMMMM I WISH I COULD HELP YOU. I HAVE THE SAME FEELING AND THE FACT THAT WHERE YOU ARE IS ALSO A GOOD/OK PLACE YOU WANT TO BE CONTENT. THEN HOME HAS THOSE OPPORTUNITIES TO EXPLORES IN SO MANY FULFILLING/GIVING BACK TO YOUR OWN TYPE OF WAY THAT MAKES YOU PERPLEXED. I AM WODERING MYSELF. GOOD POST

kramer said...

Welcome back Waffy. Naija will always be home in the heart.
Atleast now we can gist properly.
LOL
PS Im writing this from the airport in Tel Aviv, waiting for my flight back - I wouldnt be able to do this is Naija. Food for thought:-)

Ugo Daniels said...

welcome feeling, that is. Definitely not enough. There's no place like HOME.

Anonymous said...

i want to say i know exactly what u r feeling it mirrors my own sentiments perfectly. i just want to add, its a blessing for you that u have found enough balance to enjoy personal peace in a strangeland, but never forget that the only place in the world where nobody will argue your identity is your homeland.

Anonymous said...

i'ld like to say never forget home, even while away. u can open domicilliarry account, invest back home. so many wise now, but u have to be smart, on your toes, and keep eyes wide open. i kno so many peolple whose livelihood sourc based in naija and everything run smootly. and we must never put our nation down. all nations have very very dirty laundry hiding in the closet.

Uzo said...

Torn.....So many people feel this way. Will you ever get an answer? Maybe not but i think where-ever you lay your hat, that's your home (Marvin Gaye). Sure your country of origin will always mean something to you, but where you are now, where your life revolves, that's your home....

catwalq said...

r we going to get a new post or what?

UnNaked Soul said...

*sigh*
there is a side of you that I see from the way you write... and u know what am talking about... :-)