I don't mind but...

This is the second time this kind of thing is happening to me. Some months ago, my phone rang and it was "so and so gave me your number he said you could maybe help me"...

Today, it was a friend of mine who phoned to say another friend of hers had an emergency and needed help with some writing assignment...

I don't mind helping MY friends and even strangers but sometimes people just demand so much time and energy...

So this person I am supposed to help, comes and she does not really allow me help...mostly she wants to do it herself but perhaps just needed someone that thinks calmly. I eventually figured out how to help her but it would have gone faster if she did not keep interrupting me and being so forceful. She kept saying stuff like "I am stubborn"...

Its hard to help people you don't know cos you don't know what approach to take with them. If it was my friend, I would just have said "do you want me to help you or not? cos if you want help, then shut the fuck up"...

Also, I just think its a bit presumptious to assume I would like to help THEIR friends...where do I know them from?

People just demand stuff they have no right to.

I know I could have said no, but sometimes its hard when people use words like "emergency"...

Positive Vibration

Just wishing you all love and peace. Keep on keeping on!

For whoever needs it...

This song is so beautiful I almost wish I had unrequited love...where was it when I needed it?

Anyway, just in case there's anybody out there suffering...you see, so many go through this business of unrequited love, its just one of those things... so keep your head up.

Love.

Library...why can't I do right by you?

Its a pity. I really thought this autumn will be better. That I would start my season of borrowing with a good and clear conscience. So I paid off all my debts and started afresh. I am always ashamed when I look at my borrowing history. Always late. Never early. Always borrowing. Never returning.

I knew I had one book in my possession but I was not ready to return it yet so there it stood. On the other piles of books in the corner, accumulating dust and debt.

And now I am owing again. But worst of all, I can't borrow the other books I had set my mind on.

Ah! I feel quite irritated with myself. I don't want to fall back into old habits...

Anyway, apart from that, I feel quite okay.

Have a good week and be good.

Love.

Missing so many things...

Saw the other day on the internet that Christy Essien Igbokwe is dead. Awwwwwwww... another part of my childhood, gone.

Too bad. Really, its too bad. I think I need to eat some Nigerian food or something...

Early...

Totally quiet in the building. Except for me and my radio. I always wonder what people do when they just wake up...farmers, little kids, patients in hospitals, fishermen, lawyers etc. Its like one of those things that can look either extremely beautiful or completely and totally sad. Early mornings are such lonely times and depending on how you see it, can be the best part of the day or the worst part. It can be "what a beautiful morning" or "shit! am I still alive? great, another day in this mad world!".

As for me though, I am just proud of myself for sleeping six hours without waking up. Its a miracle.

This new schedule must be working...

Hope you all have a great week. Listen to lots of music, eat good food, talk to friends, enjoy your family, etc etc. All that good stuff.

Love.

Thoughts on a saturday...

Have you ever woken up and all of a sudden knew exactly what you had to do? I don't know when last I had such clarity of mind. Maybe when I was in boarding school. I used to wake up knowing exactly how I wanted my day to go and what time units I had to allocate for "punishment".

Well,I woke up from a dream in the begining of this month knowing exactly how I wanted this last part of the year to be, next year and in fact some part of my future. This never happens. Me, planning stuff.

Is this a part of my brain waking up, perhaps? Has it been asleep all this while?

Two people have remarked on my new found energy. My friend Maria, said to me the other day,"this sounds like the waffy I used to know" and the Persian, who also said "you know, these days, you are full of energy, always up to something". Take today, for example. I came to the library where I now have my office(Yes, my office is in the library. You may wonder why? Well, I happen to book a couple of hours each day in a private room with a computer. Its wonderful. I pretend this is really my office. The sad part is that you can't book many hours in a day). On getting here, I realised I forgot as usual, my code. Now, the normal me, would have given up. Okay, well another day. But no, not this new person. I went back home, got the code and now I have been here doing some good work.

Anyhow, so now I actually have a working schedule. For work, for writing, for exercise, for reading, for cooking, for shopping. I am telling you. I am on the roll here.

In fact, I am going to get a calender and start ticking off stuff as the day goes by.

If only I could get a good sleeping pattern...everything would be perfect.

Happy weekend.

P.S: We'll see how long this schedule lasts...he he he he

Love.

In a reggae mood...

Yeah, when I am gone from reggae for a while, my return is always so sweet...

HAPPY WEEK!

Busy, busy week.

Feel quite okay.

Feeling positive.

Reading a lot.

Writing.

and back to riding my bicycle before winter sets in.

Hope you are all okay and life is treating you guys well. Here's a wonderful song for the week. Starts at 1:03. I can't get enough of it!

Just sharing...

Watched the crossroads festival (2010) on TV and just loved this band and this song. Its so great. So I am sharing. I am so sorry I had never heard of them before. Well, now I do.




and here is the studio version.