Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Yesterday...

Hello sweetie,

How are you? I hope you are good. Yesterday, I wandered into "your" shop, you know, the one you always like going into...the one I always hated going into...I did not think of you while I was there. Not at all. I thought of just how boring this shop was and wondered why on earth men were moving from aisle to aisle looking like they were having the time of their lives.

I went back home. I started to do the dishes and all of a sudden I felt tears on my cheeks and then I was crying...

It is hard to acknowledge that I miss you, but I do. I wonder sometimes if you are thinking about me, I wonder why things are the way they are...

Sometimes, I wish I had never met you so the pain of leaving you would never exist. Sometimes I wish that night had never been, that night when you first came into my life...Oh God! We were so young...where did the time go?

Its been so many years now...I am thirty! Thirty, imagine! We were going to do so many things together...We were gonna buy a big house, have plenty of children, go on summer vacations, have a dog, have a cat, get a pension plan, have a farm, grow old together....

and we almost did it all, didn't we? We were almost there...now I don't know what I am going to do without you...

We grew up together...

I miss you so much and I wish things are not the way they are but we must accept the truth, no matter how hard it is.

Letting you go is the hardest thing I have ever had to do...

Think of all the good times, think of the laughter, think of the love, think of US... we did give it our best...we gave all we had...I guess it was just not enough.

You have been my best friend for so long...and I do miss you so!

Thats all I wanted to let you know, that I miss you.

Love always,
me


Note: not written yesterday...but reading it makes me cry...

11 comments:

Temitayo said...

Awww...very short, sweet and touching. Hope the person gets to read it. What more can I say?

Akin said...

Hello m'dear,

I read this and remembered the words to a song first done by the Beatles but I heard better with Bette Midler.

Stories like this come under the topic of "In my life", the lyrics to which contain these lines.

Though I know I'll never lose affection,
For people and things that went before.


Bette Midler performing in For the Boys

The Lyrics

The other day, I found a picture of Chris - indeed, we had dreams and feelings do create emotions but the pains today hopefully prepare us for joys that would make those memories pale in significance.

In our lives there would be love beyond what we knew before and joy beyond what has made us laugh before, let the smile of hope keep us to the day of the new dawning.

With love,

Akin

Myne Whitman said...

You write so well, this was very emotional...

N.Z.G said...

That note ... captures everything I want to tell but pride/fear won't let me.

Thank you.

StandTall-The Activist said...

My own curiosity is to know who this was intended for

musco said...

hmmmm!really understand how u feel.bn along d same path b4.

to make u feel much better,u can still let d person knw(only if u think it's okay).it cld go a long way!

bn a while I came here.

Anonymous said...

Sweets, it is so deep...the pain of the end of a relationship....no matter what happend....missing the other party is inevitable...the first step as they say in theraphy is admitting it...so I am sure u have started to heal...take care darling, take it easy and don't think to much, joy will surely come in the morning...on a lighter note...u thirty??????
Miss u loads

My World said...

Aww why,oh why???

Kiibaati said...

:)

Patrice said...

As painful as it can be sometimes, do you enjoy nostalgia?

Evee said...

i was on another level as i was reading this blog and i almost had tears in my eyes. i enjoyed it, the content is so deep and soaked in emotions.....