Anybody else feeling summer around the corner?
Time to find new songs...if anybody has some tips, feel free to share. Anything light, coconutty, breezy, etc.
Yesterday I chased the sun.
It was a beautiful day. My stockings kept creeping down my legs. I was forced to buy a new one in a shop, then I went to a fancy shopping mall and changed in the toilet. I pretended I was a spy. I almost wished I had a wig.
Then I bought a hotdog and sat in a park and read until the sun went down.
When I got home I was so exhausted. All day all I did was try to find spots that were sunny. It was no easy feat. Every time I crossed to one part of the street, the sun went to another.
Its weird how the first summers without him I felt strange being on my own, doing my things...and now...I look forward to doing my usual things. There is no longer a cloud of melancholy over my bicycle rides, my swimming, my long walks, my dozing on the grass...now I just think of how lucky I am to be able to do all the things I love doing.
I don't even know anymore when I am alone or not...I am my own company. I catch myself laughing at my own jokes and smiling when I am sitting on the bus or train.
I can't describe it but the best I can say is I don't feel "lonely". I am alone but not lonely.
In fact, when people come around, they disturb my groove...ha ha ha...I just want them to go away so I can get back to my own thing.
Which reminds me, I was gonna get a drink before the nearby restaurant closes. Perhaps its already closed.