What you should have said today was...

Lets get it on!

 

Locked Out Of Heaven...

Hell Yeah! Bruno Mars is back and I love it! Bite me! I think he is incredibly talented and just does his own thing. What is there not to like about young people that go their own way? I think its inspiring and I will surely be getting the album.

Update on life:

I just wish....what? I just want to be able to do all the things I want to do...its hard to do them all...some things have got to be sacrificed....

Love life: ..........I .....am....not....sure....

Its the usual call in life. Take a risk or...protect yourself. Either way, you are never sure what is right or wrong, you know...

Saturday...

I had a typical waffy day yesterday. I missed my flight. I 'll write about that when my headache goes...

I am supposed to be in Paris right now, eating croissant and watching men smoking gauloises...

But what am I doing instead?

Sigh.

Recovering from a drunken night out with a friend.

I should stick to white wine. Red wine always fucks me up.

WEEKEND!!!

 

Yep! I am off for the weekend. Can't wait. Have a good weekend guys!

 

Love.

Soul...

I have been feeling particularly sensitive these days, in a good way...

I feel really open towards the world and all that it brings.

I feel like I can feel my soul and... its a good soul.

There is so much love in there...its...

Beautiful.

Chilling...

Love Comes To Everyone...

Yep. Still stuck on the Beatles. Can't get them out of my head. I fear an obsession coming on...

It's so true it can happen to you all; there
Knock and it will open wide,
And it only takes time
'Til love comes to everyone

I have had a good day. Spent all day drinking wine and unpacking boxes...did I mention that I moved again? ha ha...I might have missed that. Yay, I am moving on up baby!

Anyway, listened to music, drank wine...and just unpacked. I could not have done all that without some motivation.

I am good.

Love.

Inspite of all the danger...

 

Just watched this movie and got all emotional when this song came on...gosh! Tears man, real tears.

Friday evening...

I had such a nice experience today. I was going to meet a friend but I had some time to spare so I roamed a bit around, going into shops and just looking at stuff. Found something for my friend. I was quite pleased with that, so I moved on.

I passed by a church. Its very beautiful inside, I have been there several times before. I went in and sat down. All of a sudden the most beautiful music started playing and a woman starts singing... opera. I closed my eyes and drifted away. I pretended that it was just for me. Especially for me. Only me. Those minutes were heavenly. After a few minutes, I decided to find out who was playing the music. There was a guy at the organ, two violinists and the opera singer. That those four people could produce something so beautiful was quite fascinating. I am encouraged to listen a bit more to classical music on my own. I only listen when it comes on the radio normally. Most time it gets me stressed and makes me have all kinds of boiling emotions...lol.

My love life is still non existent. Come on now! Why is the universe fucking with me this way? huh?

The search continues...lol...fucking life...

Happy friday!

P.S:  My mum called me while I was in the church so I mentioned that I was in church. She did not say anything then but later this evening she called me and asked me in a very suspicious voice "why were you in church?" lol. I swear she would have believed me if I had said that I was there for seducing the priest...or doing something equally bad...like I am a devil or something. So I can't just walk into a church? Do I need a reason? I just walked in cos it was there. I did not have anything particular to do in there.

I just wanna...

How weird, the only thing in my head right now is how great it would be to get drunk and dance to modern talking....I want to be glitter drunk. Have a really cool shiny top and some metal lipstick and just go wild...I think I'll do that tomorrow alone in my room and pretend I am in some east European disco....

Rain...

It was raining. I got lost in myself.

I walked into the shop and bought a cup of coffee. The rain dripped off my hair and into my coffee. I sat on the train and watched houses pass me by.

I want to be home, under covers....I don't want to be brave anymore. I will never come out from under the covers. Everybody will beg me and I will never come out. I will stay under forever and ever and ever and ever...

I got off the train. I walked as fast as I could. I met a neighbour on the train.

He is going to Malaga next week for five days. Its 28 degrees there he says...

I want to go to fucking Malaga.

I Just Want To Make Love To You....

Sunday and dancing....

I think I would like to learn how to dance Salsa properly. Normally, I and my sisters just imitate what we see on TV and pretend we can dance but once you dance with somebody that can really dance then you realise you have been dancing nonsense all this while. Maybe I will sign up for a real course! That would be someting to do in the winter...

On my mind...

Woke up to see light streaming into my room...it was beautiful.

I have a migraine...

I have decided to go for a walk. I thought of many things yesterday evening.

I went for a dinner with my former neighbours. It was something to do, it was being social, being friendly.

I realised how much I miss my friends who are all over the world. Even if I move to one part of the world to be with one person, I can never be with all of them at the same time and that sucks.

I think I need to see my family. I want to feel like I am part of something.

Life in general, is going well. I almost can't believe it that things are going so well and all I have to do is hang on for a little bit, just some months more and I would have accomplised everything I set out to do when I turned 30. Just hang on, hang on, don't give up now that you are so near. I can do it.

I just don't have any chemistry with some people. Its like totally bland. Nothing. No matter how I search, I can't find any kind of feelings. Totally numb. Its crazy like that.

Men:  I know you are out there, you might be right around the corner and you'll be the man that I love...

Cool...

I have written three posts and deleted all today. I don't think I can really describe my feelings the way I want to, so until I figure out what the hell I really want to say, let me just be cool.

 

Happy Weekend guys!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Doing stuff...

I am doing fine. Very fine. Writing, listening to music, reading, going for walks. Working at two places from next week so I will be very busy but I feel I can get through anything these days! I thrive best when I have stuff to do. Anyway, at this particular time, 4:14, this is the music I am listening to...