Surreal times......

The past couple of days have been........surreal. I have been floating, a bit lost, in and out of the world, present but not almost. I have done the things I am supposed to, been where I was supposeed to be, yet.......I have been away, in my world for quite a while now. Yesterday, I was sitting by the bus stop, waiting for my bus, the sun was shining, a gentle breeze blowing, I got up from the bench, started walking, ever so slowly, I could feel my soul, I could feel my heart beats, I could see myself in the world, me, at the bus stop, the trees and leaves bending to the wind, my life so strong and yet so weak.........I felt like singing or crying.....I could not make up my mind, I went back to the bench......lost. There was nobody on the street,no cars, it was peaceful........I closed my eyes, tried to get myself back.....I couldn't, I was drifting away again, my soul, my heartbeats, the breeze, the world.....all of a sudden, I heard laughter.....a child's laughter.....I looked in the direction it was coming from, and there they were.....mother and child, the oldest picture in the world, coming towards me. The child was on her mother's shoulders bouncing up and down with joy, the mother had one hand firmly across the child's knees, the other hand pushing a pram.....the child was laughing hard, the mother smiling......I started smiling at them as they walked towards me.......the mother smiled back....she knew I knew......she knew I knew that she loved this child so much! Yes, I knew.......I knew that at that moment their lives were in perfect harmony.....I sat staring in their direction long after they left........the feeling they left behind was strong....so beautiful, yet so surreal.