A little bit of everything...

I am so grateful for last week...and this week. Nothing special happened, my apartment is still empty and I still have not bought a proper bed so my back hurts all the time. Yet...yet...there is really something that happens when you genuinely surrender your burdens(I wrote "shit" before, but somehow it seemed a bit crude to use the word "shit" so near the word "God") to God...and the universe. For real, if you have done absolutely everything you can...wetin you wan do again? For all those, still thinking, hoping, wishing...e don do oh. Let the shit go and leave your life. It might not be what you "hoped" for, but baby, you have no choice, that's what you've got for the mean time, so just fucking live.

Anyway, point is, even with all the shit, I don't think I have ever got my mind to be as peaceful as it has been. I managed to not miss out on beautiful moments like a little kid stamping "terrific" at the back of my palm, or an older guy telling me how sexy he thinks I am, or baking three huge cakes for my friend who for some reason, has promised to feed 50 people with them(but does not know how to bake)

I had a good week and I am grateful for that, lets hope my mind continues on its peaceful path this week as well.

I watch a lot of documentaries...at least, I try to...I'd watch a documentary over a movie any day. I always want to know what other people are doing. A dear friend of mine calls me "intrusive", because I always ask one million and one questions, "what are you doing now? " what are you going to do in a minute?" " what will you do when you are sleeping?". I am curious about people's lives. I make up stories in my head about the people I see on trains and buses. I have almost followed a couple of people just cos I REALLY wanted to know where they were going. Sometimes I strike up conversations with strangers just to know "WHAT DO YOU DO IN THIS WORLD?"...anyway, back to documentaries. So that's why I watch them. There are so many people living different lives in different situations, in different countries. I am afraid I will never be able to know EVERYTHING in the world...but I am giving it a good shot.

Right. Where were we again? Yes, documentaries...so, I am scrolling through the most recent ones that have been shown on TV , when I see this. I just loved the name, "Suddenly, last winter", I had no idea what it was all about but I decided to watch it anyhow just cos I loved the title. I never knew Italy was so homophobic...okay, I know the Pope has them by the balls, but come on, they always look so hot and sexy, fashionable (Fashion world, hallo?) and...I don't know...tolerant? Imagine my surprise then, to watch this eye opening documentary about partnership laws in Italy. I mean, people living together still don't have rights? ehhhhn, aren't they part of E.U?(and I am not talking about just gays but also people that want to live together but do not wish to get married, it could be any combination, I mean, what happens if one of them dies? or is ill?)Fucking unbelievable!

Anyway, even though I learnt so much, the best thing about this doc are the guys. So, so brilliant, witty and what a sense of humour!

Wishing you all a good week!
Lots of love
Waffy