Thursday, July 15, 2010

I dont want to...

I don't want to give love a chance anymore...

Was it in "precious" when the character said "love only hurt me?" That's how I feel about men. Loving them have only hurt me. What good has ever come out of me being in love? Mostly people using me for their own selfish reasons. I never met any man that completely loved me for who I am....

I know I should give you a chance. But I don't want to. I don't want love anymore. I don't want all these feelings, hoping and then disappointment. I don't want all these expectations and then...disappointment. I don't want all these dreams and then...disappointment.

I don't want it anymore.

Loving men never did me any good. All it did was chew me up and spit me out.

So now, I don't really care what your plan is. Why you call or don't call. Why you write or don't write. I am not waiting for what it is you want to give...I see it already...all these signs hanging around...all these signs hanging around my dreams ...I see them already...

Disappointment.

No. I am not waiting for you...

I don't want to...

6 comments:

SHE said...

I think I Understand this post.

But there is always a way round these things, you know?

Patrice said...

Just see those intense moments of struggle as "growth" and perhaps things will not look so negative when we are in our personal struggles.

Do you know who wrote that?

Myne Whitman said...

Love is painful, love is sweet. Even when we don't want it, it comes in. What is life without love after all?

Anonymous said...

I know exactly how you feel, but I'm also scared that if I don't give love a chance, I'll never feel complete. Spoken like a true African woman, I guess.

Anonymous said...

Hi Waffy,

This is a beautiful text , it sounds like a poem.Sorry you feel this way.
Take care.

Sandrine

2cute4u said...

Not giving that chance, you then miss the right person..
I'd say those other experiences prepare you to know/recognise the real one when he comes along.
I know how you feel..
But you gotta try, please...