Why should I be the one to help others? huh?
Is there fucking "Maria Theresa" written on my forehead?
Why should I always be the one that has a fucking moral obligation. Huh?
Why? Why should I be the one that reacts when I see something bad? Someone in trouble?
Why should I be the one? After all, how many help me? How many people have helped me when I was in fucking shit?
Nobody. There was nobody.
And what exactly do I get for my troubles? Do I get a "thank you?" No. Do I get flowers? No. A card maybe? Huh? Nothing.
Instead, the person you are trying to help makes you feel like an idiot. Makes you feel like you should never have bothered cos all it does is cause more shit in your life. So why should I be the one?
If there is anybody out there that has an answer, please tell me cos I feel so fucking demoralized right now. What kind of world is this where you get punished because you want to do the right thing? because you believe in doing the right thing? Because you know that the truth is all we have and removing it will never make anything right again.
Tell me. Please. Because at this very second, if I see another human being in trouble, I am ready to look away, just like everybody else.