I was supposed to have an eye operation today and it was cancelled at the last minute cos they suddenly decided it did not need to be done after all. I was lying on the table and all...
I don't know why it affected me so badly. I had not slept the whole night yesterday because I was very nervous and summoned all my courage just to wake up today and go there.
Long story cut short, (lots of medical reasons I can't be bothered to get into now), they decided that it would be best to wait.
I got in some sort of panic. I was given something to calm me down. I was okay again.
My friend E came to pick me up. I cried when he came. Then it was okay again. We went for coffee, lunch, I was back to myself.
He dropped me off at home, I started crying again. On his way he called and heard my voice so he turned back and stayed with me a bit to calm me down. It worked. He left.
I wanted to watch some TV, I could not.
Went to bed and then the fucking tears would not stop. I cried and cried. Slept off.
Woke up, ate something, thinking of cooking...
and now I feel like crying again...
It just wont stop. I am incredibly sad.
I feel fucking pathetic.