Why should I do all these things when nothing ever comes out of it except me getting disappointed with humanity?
I have never come out of these adventures feeling refreshed, rejuvenated with hope for the world. More often than not, it is "damn, human beings suck!". So I usually just go back to my old life style which is not so bad. I have really good friends and family that loves me. I have my clan, so to speak. People that I know actually love me. Not people that I am not even sure if they "like" me or not. I feel better when I am doing my own things, just living my life as it is day to day, doing the things I am supposed to do and trying fucking hard to be a good person. Surely, that must be enough? Why do I keep going out there????
I am happier in my misery than in the misery of the world.