Thursday, April 5, 2007
What a woman wants.
I have been thinking a lot recently, about my life, my decisions yet to be made and those already made. Thinking about the good, the bad and the ugly. No matter what we do, no matter where we go, we are always plagued by one question, "did we do the right thing?", we should have waited perhaps? Thought a little bit longer, harder.We should have studied the matter properly, perhaps looked at past statistics? Unfortunately, life has no time for that. Decisions have to be made and they have to be made now. You are pushing thirty, quick, grab anybody, get a child, that womb won't wait forever!But...........I still haven't travelled to Nepal, I still have not taken the Siberian express from Mongolia to China, I still haven't learnt 8 languages, I still haven't learnt the piano, wait up! I can't decide now! Oh! But you have to my dear, mother nature is waiting for no woman.Yes, if you ask me, what do you want? I want this freaking mother nature to go away! Stop bothering me, I have big dreams, let me achieve them, do I really have to choose? Be a mother now or forever regret when you are 70 in an old peoples home with nobody to visit you! Be a mother now, or forever look at babies and regret not knowing what they would have felt like against your skin! Please, go away, I am tired of these silent whispers in my ears everyday. I don't want to have to choose. Can't I have it all? Climb the mountains of Nepal with a child on my back? Go backpacking around the world, my little one content with cheese and crackers? Do you know what a woman wants? We want time to stand freaking still! Even for a few seconds!