Sunday, April 18, 2010

I am ready for more than this...whatever it is...

Pain...

I can't be who you want me to be. I can't. Why won't you let me be me? Why is that so hard for you to do? Why do you need, expect something else?

Why do you want me to be something I am not? Why? why? why?

Why is that so hard? I don't do much. I eat and sleep like you do. I have a bicycle and today I bought a book. I like looking at posters on the streets and watching people that do not know I am watching them.

Am I so dangerous?

Why can't I be me?

What do you want?

I can't. I can't. I can't.

I can't.

You better move on, cos I am ready for more than this, whatever it is...

More Pain...

"Why are you treating me this way?" I asked him. "What did I do?". He turned his back to me. I could see a smile on his lips, he did not know that I could see, but I knew from the shape of the corners of his mouth, that he was smiling...

What was this in his back that I was seeing? Pride? In his mind, was he thinking, "now I got you where I want you, desperate...all women are like this, you just have to play your game right, and soon, they will be like this, desperate...so easy..."

I can't. I can't.

I can't.


You better move on, cos I am ready for more than this, whatever it is...

I can't...

"I'd really like to see you again"

"I am sorry, I really don't have time, I am too busy"

"Come on, when can I see you again?"

"My mind is too broken for these games. Too broken and too experienced"

"What do you want then?"

"More than "this"..."

You better move on, cos I am ready for more than this, whatever it is...




No more pain mutherfuckers, I just can't.

6 comments:

2cute4u said...

That's the spirit!
The shit these men dish out, They're so neck deep that can't see women are fed up and can call their bluff.
mscheeeew!

Kitten said...

That's it girl. Don't take his shit no more.

You don't need it.

Good luck moving on.

Waffarian said...

@Kitten: Thanks. Its not one man though, its a general recollection of shit...and an explanation why I just can't see men or have anything to do with them. I am the one telling them to "move on" cos I can't deal with them...in any way.

@2cute4u: hehehehe, neck deep, they certainly are...

SHE said...

Definitely annoying.

People thinking they can change you, just because they think they have you where they want you?

Most definitely very annoying! sometimes, painful.

Harry-Rami Itie said...

Hmmnnn.....

Relationship drama!!!

SOLOMONSYDELLE said...

yup, that should be an anthem. Being ready for much more than 'this'. I'm adopting it, not for my relationship but definitely for other things I am trying to do.

Thanks so much for sharing.