I enjoy these times alone.
I enjoy spending this time in my own world, doing my own things.
When I leave my space, I also enjoy being in the outside world doing outside world stuff.
However, anytime I am here, its my little refuge from everything and everyone.
I don't have to worry about anybody else apart from myself and that's always a huge burden off my shoulders.
A friend asked me the other day how I can be so happy to be in both places. Well, the thing is, nobody ever forces me to be outside or come back inside. I do both because I want to. When I leave this place, I enjoy doing what I have to do outside and when I come back, I look forward to coming back and being by myself. Its quite simple actually.
My friend's daughter was here yesterday. I enjoyed her company but I was also looking forward to her leaving and having my space back.
I don't think I am extreme but I agreed with my friend that I don't really have any middle ground. In both places, outside and inside, I have to enjoy doing whatever it is I am doing or else it all falls to pieces.
Yeah, perhaps some people will understand it and perhaps they won't.
But who cares? Its my world and I can do whatever I want to do.