Had eye surgery two days ago.
Its the most painful thing on planet earth.
I am typing with one one eye.
I was in excruciating pain most of that night. I started hallucinating and what not. Its the worst thing I have ever been through.
I took a taxi home after the surgery by myself and felt lonelier than ever.
Then I got off at the wrong building. My neighbour who became my nurse as well, came down to meet me.
For two days I have mostly been in bed, calling my neighbour on my phone and waking up long enough to eat or take more pills etc.
Today though, I woke up, had a shower, washed my hair. made some food for myself and was awake for a little bit then I dozed off again.
Now I woke up again, ate something, will take pills and sleep and hopefully when I wake up tomorrow my mum will be here and everything will be fine again.
My friend asked me if I knew anything more depressing than being alone at Christmas in a hotel. Well, try being alone with an operated eye.
This has been the most painful shit I have ever been through. All I could say to people when they called was "I am in fucking pain".
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. I am glad I have done this finally and next year can start without health stuff on my mind.
Be good and if you guys don't hear from me for a while its just because the light from the laptop hurts.
Lots of love,