Saturday, August 23, 2008

Raisins and thoughts...

Eating raisins...while others cry for the loss of a mother, a father, a childhood, guns and bombs, scars and tissues....I am eating raisins. I wonder why I am not there, crying among the unfortunate, am I a better person than they are? Certainly not. My good deeds are yet to be written about and I know not if they affect anyone. So I watch the news and avoid your eyes...don't look at me like that, I would help if I could...does thinking about you help? I think of you often...misery...and poverty...I think of you, but mostly, I run away from you. It is scary to be near you...I am not as brave as many around the world. I could do more....more than I do...my age long brownie principle of "one good deed a day" is no longer enough...I thought it would be...I mean...I do try...but it does not get to you does it? Even if I help an old woman cross the street...you are still hungry and your child still dying...it will not get to you...so I avoid your eyes...I will pretend my "one good deed a day" somehow manages to get to you, through the mystery of the beautiful circle of humanity...maybe the old woman I help will be so happy, she'll send a donation to red cross and then red cross will buy some food and then your neighbour would get a carton and because you are so good...she will share it with you? That thought makes me happy...maybe I can eat my raisins and think of you eating and your child finally smiling again? That would be something!

5 comments:

naijalines said...

If only we could right all the wrongs in the world...But life's not like that. That's our reality...Do we live with it, ignore it or do something about it?

Sprezatura said...

I love the way you stressed the chain of events, remembers me of the movie Babel. Nice work Waffarian

Patrice said...

A cross of sorts between the butterfly effect and six degrees of seperation.

And so, you have revealed your raison d'ĂȘtre (pardon the pun, even if intended): to help people, make them happy. No need to run to an ashram, monastery or wherever it was you were planning to go to a few posts ago to discover your "true purpose in life". I can think of at least one other reason for you to be.

Naapali said...

I used to share this sentiment until I read "Mountains Beyond Mountains" and "Three Cups of Tea". Now I know helping the old woman across the street is good, but not good enough. So what is good enough? I am still trying to answer that question.

Uzezi said...

u always hit the nail in the head. we could all do more, and maybe we should all start in the small ways we can