(That line is from the song "rain" by MIKA that I can't get out of my head...)
Yesterday I was talking to someone and I just kept thinking..."this conversation is making feel below ordinary"...I just could not continue with the conversation. It was just not me. I had nothing to "of me" that I could share...
It really disturbed me. I felt like I was wasting my time. I could be sleeping or reading a book.
The person noticed it in the end. He said, "you sound distracted"
and I said "I rather just sleep"
I wanted to say "talking to you makes me feel so fucking ordinary that I want to puke"...
He sounded disappointed. I did not care. I just wanted out from his ordinary conversation.
I hate ordinary.