Thursday, March 22, 2007

My passion

What is your passion? I was asked by another blogger, "refinedone", this question. She asked me this question in response to my "dreaming away" post. I have been thinking about it, and I have been wondering what to write. At first, I thought about giving a straightfoward answer like "my passion is reading" and then I thought she might want a more sophisticated answer, something to do with christianity, religion, Jesus, etc. At the end of the day, I decided to be honest and give a complicated account of my personality and hopefully, the answer to that question might lie in there. Who am I? i am very much in tune with myself. Who I am, my principles, morals, what I stand for in life, etc.Untill the age of 21, I was a very determined young woman. I knew what I wanted and I went for it. I had my goals, everything was planned in my head. No time for messing around. Anyway,thats all I have ever wanted,to make my goals a reality and succeed in eveything I do. However, somehow, even this began to change as I grew older,life became more complicated and things that were never planned began to happen. I realized how small I was in the world and yet how big my actions were.I knew who I was, and yet I was so afraid to live the life that I knew I should be living. I wanted to fit in, in a world that does not fit me.What would people say when they found out the truth about me? The truth being that :I REALLY DON'T CARE. I just don't care. I have tried to, I really have, but my mind often wonders. I participate in life, really I do, but it is with great effort. I have a lot of good friends but those that know me well enough would know that I don't have time for psychological drama( she said, you said, they said, bla bla bla) because I really don't care. I often "skip" people in life. People I deem are dishonest, hypocrites or just plain old assholes, but I also hang on to people that I feel are good and kind hearted. My love is passionate and demanding, too intense for a lot of men, I keep away from such men. Everybody makes mistakes so I forgive, it does not matter what, I try to forgive, however, due to my razor sharp memory, I never forget.

I know this is not what you hoped for, but here's a list of the things I love doing.
I love laughter, I love music, I love people, would not be able to live without them, I love the seas, I love everything white, I love pink and purple and I love libraries with rows and rows of books,I love the way books smell, I love little children and their innocence,I love cooking and trying new recipes, I love being in church when nobody is there, I love swimming in the wide blue sea and pretending I am the only one in the whole world, I love writing, and my biggest love of all, reading. Most of all,I love not knowing which way life would take me. I love the craziness of life and everything that comes with it. Too many things to do, too many things to think about. I am not afraid to grow older, everyday, I find out more things about myself, I love who I am and the woman I am turning out to be. I have so much to give and also so much to recieve. I am not afraid of life, I am only passing through, and I am damn well going to enjoy it while I can! So what is my passion? I really don't know and I don't care.Yeah, and my retirement plan is to live on a beach somewhere and sell pineapples.

OOPS! JUST REALIZED WHAT MY PASSION IS: LIFE!

41 comments:

ijeoma obu iheoma said...

oh my gosh.. can this be real.. am i really first?

ijeoma obu iheoma said...

i can totally relate to the statement "Until the age of 21, I was a very determined young woman.even this began to change as I grew older,life became more complicated and things that were never planned began to happen. I realized how small I was in the world and yet how big my actions were."

Its so true.. its amazing how life somehow becomes shaped by events totally out of our control. Its jarring, when we realise how small we really are, compared to this gigantic universe. But i guess thats why we have to carve out our own small space. and make it as big as we want it to be.

and another thing you said about.. not having time "for he said she said bullshit". mehn my sister you dont lie.. i am growing tired of such bullshit in my life too..

Waffarian said...

yEah!you are first!Wow! happy you understand! so I am not mad afterall, hahahahah, I know Chameleon and Idemili are going to say I am nuts!

Vera Ezimora said...

lol @ living on a beach & selling pineapples. You go gal!!

Jack Bloggs said...

Babes this one is different o! Reading about all the stuff you love just made me think. I love very very few things but i love them with the whole of my heart. the most correct statment anyone has ever mad about me is the fact that i am Passionate about the things i love.

But oh girl, i no sey pinapple sweet but dat no imply say make you go trade am on top bar-beach when you done old o! re-arrange that retirement plan o! tink am once more!

Calabar Gal said...

I am passionate about Life too. I'm sure quite a number of others can vouch the same too. Who wants to die unfulfilled? Certainly not me. This my life must be very well spent.

Idemili said...

Great answer!

Idemili said...

Well, to be fair, I was going to say that! LOL. I'm so predictable!

vindication through innocence said...

men...where do you get your motivation..im 21 and its all getting a tad boring...i had a shower this morning(as i do every morning as a CLEAN student...)and thought that im gonna have to do this every day...

ijeoma obu iheoma said...

lol@VTI

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Waffarian said...

conscious

Waffarian said...

My dear young ladies,you have to make a conscious decision everyday to be happy. As soon as you wake up, do whatever you have to do, to put you in a positive or good space.You can pray, or listen to music or have a good breakfast. Whatever works for you. Do something spontanous everyday. Don't do the same thing everyday, yes, (no excitement in taking in a shower but for example, i recently bought a new scrub and my bum was looking good, i can tell you, that put me in a good mood already), try and add variety in your life, with everything, food, music, take mini excursions if you can't afford to travell, rent movies, go bowling, play snooker, try an ethiopian restaurant, go for a drum and base party. Men! God know why I no fit be 21 again! heheheheheheheheheheh

Dami said...

yes o!
and we love you too[for who you are]...too many katakata for this big bad world

Chameleon said...

waffy, i think you deserve a round of applause for this post.
as i was reading it the music was playing in my head (i always have a soundtrack in my head -yes- i know im mad) was just rising to this dramatic crescendo like that part in Gladiator when everyone was chanting 'Maximus, Maximus, Maximus' and you just have that excitement in your heart and somehow, you know that everything will turn out okay.

secondly. i love this post so much that i wish i had written it, so therefore, i hate you.

have a fab weekend.

xxx

Chameleon said...

oh yeah... and your NUTS!

pineapples? who sells pineapples on a beach. coconuts maybe, but not pineapples.

:-)

LittleGirlLost said...

You must be my soul sista! I couldn't have described myself better than the way you did. Everything you wrote is me. Wow.
I like your attitude too. So Positive and optimistic. Not only are you my sister I think your blog will be my second home.

Waffarian said...

Londonchameleon: exactly! na the "business" be dat now, na so i go get monopoly for the market! Pineapple drinks, smoothies, ice cream, alcohol smoothie, etc, by the way, heres my recipe for a summer drink:
Buy a fresh big ripe pineapple, chop them into big cubes and freeze.
Blend the frozen cubes with pineapple juice and mint leaves.
It is wonderful!
If you are doing the alcohol version, just put as much vodka as you want, skip the mint leaves!

Waffarian said...

@Vera, ah ah! una go see, dat business go boom!
@Jack,which kain bar beach? i dey think st barts, antigua, etc, you dey talk bar beach!
@calabargirl, thank you jare, my sister!
@idemili, see who dey talk! na both of us go dey roam street now!hahahhaahah
@littlelostgirl,thank you dear, i'll be hanging out at your blog too!

Waffarian said...

@dami: thanks dear, lots of love to you too!

law_damsel said...

my dear, i dey feel u on dat spotaneous acts everyday cos if not ehn!! thank God 4 few waffy pple i dey meet una dey make life interesting, innit!!!(loll

Idemili said...

Waffarian I am a dove too! Why are you copying me eh?

Abeg it's the weekend! Update before Monday or mu na gi ga etinye ukwu n'ofu ukwu mpeteri!

Waffarian said...

Hehehehehehehe! Idemili! you this girl! infact, i am going to ya blog, if you never update! heheheheheeh make i no talk too much, na me and you today!

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Idemili said...

Ah-ah Waffarian! Why are you shouting at me now? I prefer to read your blog than update mine. Isn't that a compliment?

Idemili said...

I have just gone back to your 'Psycho' post! Hahahaah! It's so funny! Yesterday I remembered it on my way out and I was laughing so hard I almost fell over.

I will keep posting until you update. Na me and you today!

Idemili said...

So because you don't have to cook for oga aproko, you want to face me? Ha!

I hope you aren't feeling sleepy yet!

Idemili said...

How fear go take catch me? Abegi! Leave my flatmates out of it.

That was a low blow, besides Aunty Flo dey.

Idemili said...

Why you dey ask where I dey? You no dey see me so? Oya shine your eye o!

Chameleon said...

right... im getting you... i see you have done your research so you have my support 100%.

and the drink... sounds delicious. u know im going for the vodka option right? lol

Waffarian said...

My dear people, I just want to acknowledge that Idemmili challenged me and I won! With my waffy sagacity, I was able to outsmart her!Thank you very much. Idemmili, I'll be waiting for your "defeat" speech.

omohemi Benson said...

When asked that question,many people have a diffcult time answering.

My passion is Life,do the best I can to everyone and every thing in the best way I can!

Thanks for this post.

Jaycee said...

Lollll...I don't care abt psychological wahala ("she said, you said" stories) either...lolll...

Nice passionate summary!

Yosh said...

Ma sista, how fa na? I be Ogwashi-Ukwu pikin o, hardcore Azungwu boy, but make I no go too deep, so u no go follow me lost. Anyhoos, sha, thanks for stopping by.

And right on about your passion. Staring @ d world thru d rearview! I love that! :) Have a good weekend..

exschoolnerd said...

lol @ selling pineapples..


Didnt used to be passionate about life till recently..realised thatther's alot i have to offer and need to accomplish....and experience..can totally relate to this entry..

lol @ V.T.I..i totally feel like that sometimes..

Idemili said...

You didn't win you mad girl! Is Oga Aproko back? You weren't replying so I left you and buggered off. I thought I had won but unlike you I didn't gloat.
I will deal with you. I get MSN and Yahoo. I challenge you to another duel. Pick your weapon and name the place and time.

LondonBuki said...

Am I not your passion? :-(

LOL!!!

Well written!

Idemili said...

Waffarian sebi you don yab me come my blog again?! Heh! Country people come o!

Idemili said...

You know me and my exciting life, I'm planning to go to bed so as to wake up early and go to church, so that I do not meet the devil again! LOL

At least you can update your blog now. Yarn that chic gist nah! Wetin you think?

Diary of a Mad Soul Sista said...

great post, waffi. inspires me to figure out what my passion is too...

Refinedone said...

I only just saw this post after months... No your passion does not have to be "religious"

You may think you dont have a passion.. but after reading this post it's clear you have a passion for Life! and to live it to it'f fullest!

You have a passion for truth and people...

You are passionate and that draws people to you...

Your passion is relationships...:)
have a passionate life! later.