Monday, March 26, 2007

There is part of my life that I have not written about yet, the death of my father. I have read other bloggers like Londonnaijachic, moments and phumie and I have been encouraged by their words. I have decided to put up a letter I wrote to my father shortly after he passed away. This will be the only time that I write about him in my blog, only because I believe thats the best thing to do for my self. I want you all to know that I am not sad, I am happy for the times I shared with him and I am so grateful and thankful that I knew him and I was his daughter.



Dear Daddy,

When I woke up today, your head was heavy on my shoulders.It just got heavier and heavier. All your grief and sorrows were laid on my shoulders and I have carried them ever since. What burdens have you put on me? Please, do not go. Come back, Daddy. Do you remember everything? How proud you used to be of me? I was going to be a doctor. Daddy, I don't know what happened but I never wanted to let you down. I was going to rule the world, make you proud of me. Did I do that? Did I ever make you proud of me? I remember you everyday. All the times I loved you, all the times I hated you and now I miss you so much. Daddy, I am glad I told you that I love you because I always have. Don't be angry with me. Don't go so far away. You've always been so far. Where are you now? Do you remember when you used to take us swimming? and then we bought suya afterwards. Do you remember Warri club? You took us there every weekend. I loved it. We used to buy petrol on sundays and newspapers, and then we went home. I hated the smell of petrol but I always went because It was just me and you. Daddy please don't go. You will always be with me forever. I will never let you go. You have to be proud of me. You have to.

Your daughter

26 comments:

law_damsel said...

May he soul rest in Perfect Peace..Hugs dear!

UnNaked Soul said...

My love to you. He rest in Peace now.

omohemi Benson said...

WOW,
This is a simple post and very touching.
Your father,is proud of you and know that he loves you.

I really don't know what more to say but thank you.
Nice post.

bimbylads said...

huggss.. huggsss.. he is proud of you! he has to be! glad ur not grieving in pain.. glad ur rejoicing in his memories!

Nyemoni said...

Awwwwwww... Pele dear... I'm sorry about the loss of your dad... I'm sure he's proud of you! :-)

londonnaijachic said...

very heartfelt!Am sure he is proud of you and he is always with you.

Idemili said...

Damn.

Ok, I'm just going to shut up now. I never know what to say to loss.

What do you want me to do? Or say? Or...buy?

Your dad's probably drinking tombo somewhere and going 'Way to go Waffy my dear. I'm so proud of you."

kramer said...

May he rest in peace. Im sure your dad was always proud of you, rest assured of that. He will be there, always watching over his little girl. Lol.

Chameleon said...

sweetie, we know he's super proud of his waffy girl. why wouldnt he be. your fab!

ijeoma obu iheoma said...

how touching..
i am sure he has every reason to be proud of you..

laspapi said...

It is well, waffy.

LittleGirlLost said...

MHSRIP.
I feel you on this one - again.
I remember crying my eyes out the night before my Graduation because this was yet another thing that Daddy was missing. If only...

law_damsel said...

i was first!!!!!!!!! whoa...

Confused Naija Girl said...

May he rest in peace .

Waffarian said...

@ everybody, thank you so much for your kind words.

Waffarian said...

@everybody, funny thing, after I put up this post, I dreamt of my father, the strange thing is everytime i dream of him, I see him as he was in his last days, sick and sad, for the first time, I dreamt of him being happy! and Idemili you were right, the man was teaching me how to pound yam! hahahahahahahah!

boorish male said...

My sister, don't worry he is in a better place now.

Chude! said...

This was a beautiful post. Glad I caught it.

Take care.

SOLOMONSYDELLE said...

Thanks for sharing such a heartfelt letter. I am quite positive that he is lookinng down on you with pride and love. Take it easy, babe!

chioma said...

Nne pele oh! I feel you.my dad died last year and I anytime i think of him i am in tears.Infact i try not to think about him at work cus I just breakdown.
warri club...makes me rememeber how my dad took us to ikoyi club.
newspapers,not wanting him to go....can't write anymore...May God heal the pain in our hearts

4wardnfiaca said...

nna, sorry to hera about ur dad. Good to know u'r doing ok tho. May God continue to give u the strength to keep on..
Ditto chioma

Idemili said...

You no go update, na to find my trouble!
Abeg! I no do Homec o! I do Agric, believe it or not. I can out-farm you anyday!

Idemili said...

Ha! I posted in the wrong place!

Ladybug said...

This was such a simplistic, yet touchinng post.
I'm so sorry about your loss, I'm sure your Dad Is watching you and must be proud of you.
May he rest in peace.

LondonBuki said...

I smiled when I saw what you wrote about your dream...

He is resting in peace and if he could see you now... I am sure he'll be smiling.

(hugs)

ebony said...

You said "All the times I loved you, all the times I hated you and now I miss you so much." Your words hit me like a lightning bolt! Lost my Dad Feb 1, 2006. Your post raised sooooo many emotions. You have a way with words....lovely blog.